So this new blog is gonna be my way of venting really! A small introduction to get started, I suppose, is in order? I am a mother, first and foremost, to 6 kids! Five boys, one girl... yes, she hates being the only girl, yes we tried for a sister (got 3 little brothers instead), and yes we are done! I am also a birthmother to an 18 yr old boy... no I have no contact, yes I ache daily because of that, yes I'm open to talking about it, yes it was probably the best thing for him at the time, but no, I don't like that adoption really became my only option for him. I have been married to my one, and only, husband for almost 17 yrs now. I met him when I was 17, we dated for 2 months, became engaged, 2 months later moved in together (a few weeks before I turned 18), and 2 months after that we were married... no, I was not pregnant, no my parents weren't happy about it, but yes, I am glad he is my husband! We have had some major challenges in our marriage, some of which I will probably, eventually, talk about here, but in the end, it all has made me who I am today.
I am originally for So Cal, born and raised. In 2001, we moved to Utah... it's cheaper, it's a "slower" way of life, some of my family was there, and we really liked it. In 2009, we took a small detour back to CA, thinking we'd find our gold rush... never did, only spent 9 months there, and moved back to UT in Jan, 2010. At that point, I decided after having been a stay-at-home mom for 13+ yrs, it was time to go back to school and get a degree and "do something" with my life. I chose an accelerated program at a career college that would allow me to be done with school in 12 months and, with transferred in credits, I was able to get my Associates Degree and not just a certificate. I majored in medical insurance billing and coding. (I think I also fell for the sales pitch of making big money after graduation, which isn't really true, not till I have YEARS of experience!)
So after school, I went to work, not quite full time, but it was good to get out of the house and have some extra money for the family. But after being in the working world for a while, I have YET AGAIN found myself out of work and a full time stay-at-home mom... and I'm realizing the pitfalls of having been "gone" when I was and now being here all the time. It's hard to get back in the swing of things! I have also decided to go back to school, this time to get a degree in a field where my heart has really always been... nursing! I, again, have found an accelerated program that will allow me to sit for the NCLEX to become an RN in only 2 yrs. I'm going to take a couple more Gen Ed classes at the community college this Fall and then will enroll at the nursing school in Jan 2013.
So now to the "TONE" of my blog... I use Facebook a lot, and people always post these pictures/sayings... some inspirational, some funny. I want to take one each blog post and talk about it. I don't know how well this will work, but I'm gonna try? So, with no further delay, here is my first, mostly because this is how I've been feeling about myself lately:
When I first saw this one, I thought, "Boy do I know a few people like this!" But today I'm feeling like that's me! While I have decided to go back to school, let's face it, raising 6 kids, 3 of which are now teenagers, is EXPENSIVE! My husband works for a world-wide company and makes a fairly decent living... but like I said, raising 6 kids, 3 of which are teenagers, is EXPENSIVE! I feel like I need to help contribute to the family budget some way? I am still looking for work, and in the mean time, collect a very meager unemployment insurance benefit each week! It's actually kind of a joke how small it is! But it's money I've paid into the "pot" so I'm using it! And I'm SHOCKED at how little jobs there are out there hiring! I hear about it all the time on the news... but it never affected us, here in my home!
In order to collect the unemployment, I have to file a weekly claim, on Sundays, listing the places I have applied for work at each week. Well, yesterday was my son's 14th birthday, and I got busy, and forgot... till this morning! When I jumped out of bed, turned on the computer and filed the claim. Now my payment will be delayed by another day... hopefully! (And not another week!)
Also, trying to register for Fall 2012 classes at a community college is a freaking joke! I had hoped to take the 3 classes I need online. Well... only got "in" to 1... got waitlisted on the other 2. One opened up last week, but I didn't get the email in time and the 24 hours that I had to add the class, expired! So back on the waitlist I went! So this past week I decided to check my email every morning and every evening. Yesterday was the first time I didn't check in the evening... and sure enough, I was accepted into a class at 11:02 am. But I didn't check the email until 11:05 am today... and was again dropped from the waitlist because the 24 hours had expired! And when I tried to add the waitlist again, discovered it was FULL! Sooooo... I added that class as an on-campus class. The last class I'm still waitlisted, one for online and another for on-campus! Sooooo not how I wanted to spend my Fall 2012, going "on-campus" to take those classes, but it will make things easier once I'm in the RN program in Jan 2013.
So I'm kind of feeling like I just can't seem to get this plan for my life together... even if it came in a combo! I have really struggled with the loss of my job (that's a long story that I'm sure I'll get into another day), I've really struggled with being a stay-at-home mom again, I've struggled with trying to know what God's plan is for me and feeling like one way is right, then NOTHING working out and having to accept maybe I didn't understand God's message to me? (my faith and how I struggle with it is another thing I will go into another day, another time)
I guess it's time to just pick another combo meal?
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